Went to my first Critical Incident Stress debriefing yesterday. Our Provincial search and rescue team has had 3 suicides involving individuals who jumped from bridges into rivers.. 2 found dead and 1 was never recovered. All these searches were within less than 3 weeks. When they offered the debriefing I thought it might be a good idea just to go, see what it’s all about, it’s getting to be a stressful time of year and you never know how critical stress will manifest itself within you. I wasn’t feeling “stressed” or bothered by it per se, but I just found myself thinking of all the ideations, attempts and successful suicide calls I’ve been on. It’s definitely my “weakest” genre of calls.. especially if they’re around my age or have kids that are.
You don’t even really realize it after a while how little bits and pieces of calls stick with you even if you can’t really remember them.. for example - everytime I see one of those inflatable Christmas snow globe lawn decorations I’m briefly reminded of the first cardiac arrest I went to - I can still see it sitting on the house’s porch.
Other than that, I’m happy I went, I’m glad to know that the support network is there if anyone were to ever need it